Five More Minutes.

J_20140818_0081BWDo you all know that Scotty McCreery “Five More Minutes” song? Oh man did the lyrics hit me pretty hard the other day. Every time Jackson hits my last nerve or frustrates me, I try to tell myself there will come a time in my life when I will have wished I had five more minutes with him as a little boy. Then I looked at him and realized he is not little anymore and I am already wishing I had five more minutes of him being little.

Here are the lyrics, in case you don’t know the song….

Lyrics
Eight years old a couple cane poles sitting down by the creek
Our lines in the water watching those bobbers seeing that red sun sink
Mama’s on the porch yelling supper’s hot, y’all come and get it
We yelled five more minutes
At sixteen it was twelve o three standing at her front door
Katie’s dad said midnight, but we needed just a little more
Yellow light flipping on and off, interrupting that goodnight kissing
We wanted five more minutes
Time rolls by the clock don’t stop
I wish I had a few more drops
Of the good stuff, the good times
Oh but they just keep on flying
Right on by like it ain’t nothing
Wish I had me a pause button
Moments like those Lord knows I’d hit it
And give myself five more minutes
At eighteen turned my helmet in and walked to the fifty yard line
Just the coach and me after we lost eighteen to nine
And I cried man next time to get in here I’ll have to buy a ticket
Can’t you give me five more minutes
Time rolls by the clock don’t stop
I wish I had a few more drops
Of the good stuff, the good times
Oh but they just keep on flying
Right on by like it ain’t nothing
Wish I had me a pause button
Moments like those Lord knows I’d hit it
And give myself five more minutes
At eighty-six my grandpa said there’s angels in the room
All the family gathered ’round knew the time was coming soon
With so much left to say I prayed Lord I ain’t finished
Just give us five more minutes
Time rolls by the clock don’t stop
I wish I had a few more drops
Of the good stuff, the good times
Oh but they just keep on flying
Right on by like it ain’t nothing
Wish I had me a pause button
Moments like those Lord knows I’d hit it
Yeah sometimes this old life will leave you wishing
That you had five more minutes
Five more minutes

Y’all he just turned FOUR! How is that even possible? It seems as if only a short time ago, we were sleeping in a hospital bed trying to figure out how to stop this baby from crying. Oh man, we were clueless. Right when you think you have things figured out, have a baby! You will realize you have no clue!

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But more than that I wasn’t really ready for how much this little boy would change me. When we were “waiting” to be matched with a birthmom all I could think of was holding a little baby in my arms and how happy it would make me. That is about the extent of how my brain worked.  I didn’t think much past the baby stage. And then our baby grew in to a toddler. And then our toddler grew in to the four year old talkative, smart, sensitive, loving, caring, fun little boy that he is. And my heart just about exploded. He says some of the sweetest things and I think my heart can’t take any more of this.

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But now here we are the last week of summer and he is off to school for the first time next week and this momma cannot.handle.it. I am excited for this stage, don’t get me wrong. He is so smart and I just know he will thrive in school. But, I want to be selfish and keep him small and with me. I don’t want to let him go. And if it hurts this bad to send him to school, can you imagine how I will feel when I have to send him off to college or when he gets married? Oh goodness, I cannot even let myself go there.

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Do all you other mommas out there have the same feeling sending your child off to school for the first time? I don’t know if it is because he is our only child, and will be our only child, so I only get to do this once, but man, my emotions are all over the place. Thank you hormones!

So for now, I will take every five minutes I can have with him. And this time next week (Tuesday), when he starts school, you will find this momma on the bathroom floor crying! Wondering where my little baby went and just wondering how he is doing in school.

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3 thoughts on “Five More Minutes.

  1. I dropped Caleb’s stuff off at school today. I walked into the office, took one look at the “Welcome Back” sign with the markers on it and teared up immediately. I will be right behind you in line for that cry next Tuesday!

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  2. So so sweet . I remember meeting you & Jackson at the Kranz family reunion . I am about to launch the pro life event called 40 days for Life so that more babies like him will not be aborted but to live to give other couples joy like you are experiencing ! God bless you !! Colleen Venezia is

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